I have been meaning to write this as a success story for quite some time now. I did write a little short success story that was maybe a paragraph long, maybe 18 months to 2 years ago, but I've been wanting to expand on it and make it more detailed; however, there's just been something in me that has been holding back and I know what that is. I'll explain.
The reason why I've been holding back is kind of laughable because I know that it's just coming from my own assumptions
It is because I have this assumption that there are a lot of people in the subreddit, or just on Reddit in general don't believe they control or are in control of everything. That is, they can manifest money, they can manifest jobs, they can manifest SPs, but when it comes to their mental health (such things as PTSD, OCD, autism, ADHD, bipolar, and similar), all of a sudden the limits seem to overtake them
I know because I butt heads with a lot of people in the comment section about this. Again, I'm well aware that it's coming from me and I need to change my assumption !!
They'll all accept that I cured my own cancer last year but to say that your mental health is a manifestation and can be changed for them is a completely, "Oh my God, no, we can't do that." but no.. "I am the exception.. My mental health isn't fixable…. "
Now that I've got all that out about why I have held back, I will tell my story
Just for the record I want to state a fact: every single thing in your life, including your mental health or your mental state, is a manifestation. It is a story that you are telling, or a belief, or a diagnosis that you have once accepted as true
Point blank period.
Now I know that there are going to be some people in the comment section that are smartasses and they're going to ask about things like schizophrenia or psychopaths and sociopaths. In actual fact, I do have firsthand experience with a sociopath
And yes, it is absolutely 100% a manifestation from your own mind. My daughter, at the age of 12 years old, was diagnosed as an emerging sociopath. She is now 25 years old, so this was a long time ago.
And that is actually one part of the reason why I got into manifestation in the first place: because I was told about this Dr Hew Len and the Hoʻoponopono thing and that he cured a whole hospital full of mentally ill patients. I tried this on my daughter and it wasn't until I started seeing her as perfect in my own mind that she is now perfect.
Just to finish up this particular paragraph about other people: if you're asking about schizophrenia or any other sort of mental disorder, it's you being aware of those people that's causing it. It's not them because it's your reality, not their reality
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Now my own story is that, back maybe 15, 20 years ago, initially I was diagnosed with just good old depression but that soon evolved, after trying a few different medications, into manic-depressive, which is a form of bipolar type 2. I was also diagnosed with C-PTSD and OCD at the time . One of the many psychiatrists over the years said to me, "It's like this big porridge of soup and everything is just similar."
At one stage they tried me on a new type of drug or whatever and it turned me psychotic, where I literally stood still in one spot for 6 hours and stared at a wall. I have literally no memory of this. I actually have no memory of 3 days where I went into a psychotic episode and was hospitalized. I've actually been hospitalized probably 3 or 4 times over the years. I've tried to end my life 3 or 4 times and always failed and have woken up in hospital handcuffed to the bed.
Moving forward, I think it was about 2018 when I found hypnotherapy. I went and saw some of the top hypnotherapists in Melbourne and they put me through these programs to release stored emotions and things. Sure… they kind of made me feel better in the moment and kind of helped but they didn't fundamentally change who I was being!!
So after a period of time I would just return back to my old self (what a surprise!) and I would have to go on this journey again of finding someone else: "Oh well, that one didn't work. I'll have to try someone else, and then someone else. Oh well, that didn't work. Maybe I'll try kinesiology, or maybe I'll try emotion code, or maybe I'll try this." Constantly in this "fixer identity thinking something was wrong with me….."
I went on this journey of 5 years of fucking trying to fix myself until one day I fell into the Law of Assumption world..
This was way back in 2019 and I just remembered watching a few videos and just sitting there in silence thinking, "Oh my fucking God, this is the secret code of life." I just knew without a doubt that my own thoughts about myself had caused this whole Shemozzle for the last 15 / 20 years of my life .
When people usually come into the Law of Assumption or manifestation, they're usually in this desperate rock-bottom state and that is exactly where I was. There was no point for me in trying to manifest all these things like SPs, monies, business and things when my mental state wasn't even stable and balanced. The foundation has to be solid before you can build on it. Well… technically…. It doesn't have to be, but it SHOULD be
After me obsessing for years about this topic, I'm not even sure what year it was that I decided to just go all in on affirming. Because at the time I was an affirm-and-persist girlie, I was going to affirm that I was healthy and happy, balanced and stable. I affirmed that until I was blue in the fucking face ..
I did it because I knew that my life depended on it, I think I heard some success story of some other girl doing the same thing and it took maybe over a month. That was her story, BUT remember this is going back to 2020 or something so it's not what we know now!
I just kept going day after day after day after day and I'm not talking all day, but most of the day. I'd be just like, "I'm happy and healthy. I'm balanced and stable." I wasn't working at the time, so of course I had the time to do this
And honestly I can't even remember how long I took because I kind of forgot. It wasn't until months later that my mum was talking to me about how I was doing and it suddenly occurred to me that I hadn't even had a bad day in months. I was absolutely fucking shocked because when they diagnosed me with bipolar, they told me I was a rapid cycler. I would be up for a week and then down for a couple of days, up again and then down for a couple of days. I'm like, "Oh my God, I haven't even had a drop."...
Now I'm not going to say that it was smooth sailing just perfectly after that and that I never had a bad day again. I will say that they became fewer and fewer and fewer and fewer and then sometime, I think it was about 2 years ago when I wrote the success story, I was like, "Holy shit!"
I was reading back through my journals because I write in an online journal every single day of my life for the last 10 years. At the very end of the year I usually read back over the year just to see where my head was at for most of the year. I remember thinking to myself, "Holy shit! I did not have one bad day for an entire year."
Another 18 months went past and then 2 years and I didn't have a bad day for over 2 years. I was just like, "Well holy flippen duck shit."
It really does prove that whatever story you're accepting as true or whatever story you're telling yourself is your life.
Because a couple of years later the whole ADHD thing was going around and my girlfriends were telling me, "Oh Kylie, you're ADHD." Now I always knew that because obviously I had accepted that as true but I hadn't even thought about working on it.
Then when I realized, "Oh I should probably stop telling that story," I had just started telling myself, "I always get shit done. It's easy for me to start projects." Whatever the opposite was of the negative stories, it all went away. Once again just proving that whatever story you are telling is going to be your life .
And there we go. I finally got to the end of my mental health manifestation story
Just for the record.. If anyone watches my videos, or reads some of my posts, you will know that I have kept the ASD label.. Because I like it. It makes me unique and I have only kept the good traits.. If anything annoys me or becomes a problem, then I just stop telling that story or stop being aware of it. (like my wind story the other day!)
Over and out
Xx
K
